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jade curtiss ([personal profile] roneal) wrote2014-09-23 12:16 am

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The market is, objectively speaking, a miserable place. Precious few of the merchandise are happy to be there, nude and bound and collared - sometimes even caged - free for every prospective customer to examine. Few of the customers are happy either. Prices are high, and the press of so many bodies create a stifling atmosphere.

All in all, it is exactly what Jade had expected. He strolls leisurely through the market, not particularly bothered by what is going on around him. It was one of the reasons he had been chosen for this assignment. Today is his first day at the market; he's meant to speak with the vendors, make connections, and walk away with a cheap but handy acquisition.

He's working on the last part now. It's surprisingly difficult to find someone useful and docile, but still with some spirit left - he does not trust the older slaves who are complacent with the system.

It's during his second time looping through the market that someone catches his eye - for all the wrong reasons. He stops, stares at the familiar figure in front of him, an uncharacteristically surprised expression flashing over his face.

Then he's smiling again. He's still unsure if this is a good turn of events, but perhaps he could use this to his advantage.

"My my, I didn't expect to see you here."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-16 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
The answer to that question is very simple. Shinjirou glances at Jade, hands folded in his lap. He remembers that Jade didn't want him to pick at the scabs and he'd rather continue being adequate than losing it altogether. Still, he chews on his lips, but that won't stain the sheets.

"You're going to be angry." Though Shinjirou wonders if that's not exactly what he wants. Someone else being angry with him is easier to deal with than his own anger. Can he risk Jade taking his safety line from him? "... I'll show you, if I have to."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-17 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
He tries not to think about the consequences when he slips out of bed and wanders over to the futon. Jade will take them away and he mustn't. The small plastic bag that holds the rest of the suppressants fits neatly into his fist. There aren't that many left.

Hesitantly, he returns to Jade's side, climbing into his lap. If he uses his body weight, he may just have a chance of keeping the pills somehow by making it harder for Jade to move. Adrenaline or not, he's too exhausted -- he doesn't believe for a second that putting up a fight would help him.

"Sorry." He opens his hand, not looking up at Jade.
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-18 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"No!" Cradling the pills, he casts his eyes down. It's no surprise that Jade isn't happy about this, Shinjirou expected that -- and got them anyway because they're absolutely necessary. Why does he feel shame well up then, the feeling of having done something wrong? That's idiotic. He did the right thing.

"It won't. They're ... safe." I'm safe when I take them. "They wouldn't even have an effect on you."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-19 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Jade already knows far too much and Shinjirou assumes that Jade also knows some things that he isn't even aware Jade knows about. And this is the secret he cannot spill. Absolutely not. If Jade's really unlucky, he'll learn the truth one day anyway.

Slowly breathing in and out, pills still clutched in one white-knuckled fist, Shinjirou sits back. The cracked skin of his lips he's been chewing on tastes salty and metallic. He should find another way to let his energy out when he's nervous, he thinks. One that isn't so telling. "On me. They have an effect on me and people like me."

He shrugs. "I'm not smart enough to explain this." Which isn't actually a lie. As long as the drugs work, he doesn't care, side-effects be damned. So what if he's almost always cold? There's ways to at least make his body believe it's hot.

"You're not going to take them away?"
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-22 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'll lose control." This time, he doesn't slip up. No it he'll lose control of, just himself. And shouldn't that be enough of an explanation? It should be. That's already bad, that can already hurt people. It won't impale them and tear them apart, though.

Gnawing on his lips again, he slips off and turns his back towards Jade, pills hidden in his fist. He's gotten cold. It's not the cold he's used to, more like swallowing a frozen block of lead. It's hell on his worn-out body, every bruise a source of heat amidst the cold. Head hammering, Shinjirou closes his eyes and slowly reclines. "If you want to keep using me the way you do now, you can't take them. Even if it takes weeks or months or a whole year, something bad's gonna happen."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-25 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Not really, he thinks and digs his fingers into the plastic. What if Jade decides to take them away after all, or tricks him with placebos? This is too important to risk anything like that happening. On the other hand, now that he's shown his hiding spot ... it may yet be his safest bet to agree. Not like he has a lot of good options there.

And so Shinjirou nods, turns around slowly and puts them into Jade's hand. Head bowed, he shifts closer. He curses himself for wanting to be closer now all of a sudden, but when he closes his eyes it's easy to pretend that it's alright to snuggle up to someone who could cut his lifeline. "Don't do anything stupid with them. Please."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-29 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
"Good." It's comforting to hear it and even more than that Jade's touch, as casual as it is. Shinjirou inches closer until it's sort of hard to breath. He doesn't mind that much. It makes him dizzy and dizzy just means having an easier time ignoring the thoughts and pictures his brain's still throwing at him.

His muscles can't keep the tension forever, thankfully. Before he can finally fall asleep, his lids flutter and startle him awake a few more times -- as if there were danger waiting for him. Eventually, he gives in to the fact that he's too worn out to be alert and relaxes into the not-quite embrace. It's in the first moments of deep sleep that one of his hands settles on Jade's chest, and then he hardly moves at all for the rest of the night.
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-01-31 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
For all the things he'd seen while awake, his night is dreamless, at least what he remembers when he blinks his eyes open. The movement beside him and the loss of warmth end his sleep. He stays still, however, his body so heavy it's easy to imagine the mattress will swallow him whole any minute now.

That wouldn't be so bad. His mind is blissfully empty only for a few seconds. He stares at Jade without saying a word, just watching. There's a lot to process and he's not ready for that, but the unease settles over him only a moment after the lazy satisfaction about his sore body does.
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-02-04 11:44 am (UTC)(link)
Shinjirou stares a little while longer, in silence, before he finally opens his mouth. "Yes." The pain in his throat isn't razor sharp like before, but it isn't gone completely. It's dull enough to be bearable, though. And despite not having tested it yet, his hopes are rising that the rest of his body isn't any different.

He licks his lips, trying to gauge whether it's a smarter move to wait for Jade to speak again or to start talking. After spilling a few secrets too many during the night, he isn't exactly trusting himself to make a sensible decision. Instead of saying anything else, he reluctantly stretches beneath the blanket. Not too bad -- his bones are heavy and he does ache, yes -- he manages to shift into a more comfortable position without hurting himself.
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-02-09 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
He doubts that Jade will drop the topic should he lie and say no, which is a real pity. At least Jade's form no longer resembles hers. Really, it's hard to grasp what kind of trick his mind played on him that had Jade looking anything but himself. Whatever state he was in, he's not interested in returning to it.

But the harm's already done. Slowly, Shinjirou nods. "Guess I do. And you want to pick it up where we left off." It's weird to even think about explaining everything to Jade; none of it would make any sense to him, would it? And then Shinjirou wonders if there'd be a refund for accidentally purchasing a lunatic. That makes him grin, though he turns his head and tries to hide it.
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-02-12 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
"Tch. Yeah, I can." In the end, what matters most -- to Shinjirou, the only part that does -- is that a woman is dead. And the taste of bile that pushes into his mouth has him swallowing his grin fast. Petting the blanket, he stares at the red rings around his wrists. They're sort of pretty.

"I just don't wanna."
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[personal profile] castorprince 2015-02-14 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Easy for you to say, Shinjirou thinks and wishes Jade's ease would rub off on him. No, he sits there, slouched over his knees, waiting for the moment to pass. Of course it doesn't, as uncomfortable situations tend to last an eternity no matter what the ticking of the clock says.

"Where, uh, should I start?"

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