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After a minute, Jade steps into the bathroom with a change of clothes in hand, which he places on the counter.

"It'll be a little cramped with both of us in there." He starts undoing the buttons on his shirt, not at all self-conscious. "I hope you won't mind."

The shirt is shrugged off and placed onto the counter as well, along with his undershirt. For someone who likes to appear as a simple businessman, a surprising number of scars lace Jade's torso. In particular, there's one that stretches from his right shoulder to his chest. The first time Shinjirou had seen it, he had already been completely drunk, and Jade had counted on him to forget. But now that they're living together, Jade sees little reason to hide it.

Not that he gives Shinjirou much time to look; he bends down to remove his pants almost immediately. Once they're placed on the counter, he steps into the bathtub, sinking down to sit behind Shinjirou.

"No, I won't." Shinjirou makes no attempt to hide that he's staring -- ogling -- as Jade undresses. He's handsome and Shinjirou hasn't gotten a chance to explore his body at all, not even allowed to see it, much less touch.

Frowning at the sight of the scar, he shifts to make room for Jade. He leans back uncertainly, reaching for a bar of soap. He's supposed to clean himself, not ask any questions which he, admittedly, is doing far too often. There are so many unanswered ones and they're piling up by the minute.

The fresh bruises make him flinch when he rubs the soap into his skin. The scratches are worse. And then the disgusting feeling when the guest's come leaks out of him into the water, in a steady stream. He closes his legs, so that at least Jade won't have to see.

They can afford to be a little wasteful; bathing in dirty water is counterproductive anyway. "Pull the plug and turn on the water again," Jade says. "And give me the soap."

He doesn't think he'll do this often, but just for tonight, he can treat Shinjirou. Some of those scratches look rather nasty. Shinjirou's probably had worse, but better safe than sorry. Jade is under no delusions. It's because of him that Shinjirou was marked up in that manner - it's his responsibility to tend to him, make sure he's alright.

"Uh, okay. I mean, yes." He hands Jade the soap before leaning forward to pull the plug and turn the water back on, hot enough to send more steam into the air. None of this takes very long and he quickly returns, pressing himself up against Jade's body.

With the soap no longer in his possession, he guesses it's extra pointless to be shy about the mess between his legs. He spreads them, wrinkling his nose at the sticky come on top of too many dark bruises. "I look blotchy."

"You do." He runs the soap along Shinjirou's thighs with careful, precise motions, applying just enough pressure to soothe. The dried come sloughs away easily and dissolves into the surrounding water. It's a little disgusting, but Jade ignores it, as well as the steady trickle that continues to escape from Shinjirou. There's not too much of it, and he's dealt with worse before.

"I'll help you apply some cream to it later, but you'll have to do it on your own next time." Thighs done, he moves onto Shinjirou's chest, all but draping over his shoulder in order to see what he's doing. "It's a good thing this isn't a bad look for you. There are plenty of people who'll enjoy it." And even more who won't care at all, as long as they have a warm body stretched out for their use.

Shinjirou is grateful, for mostly everything: that Jade hasn't abandoned him, that he's gentle with him, that he's taking away the dirt the guest left on him. The wounds will stay for a few days at least, those can't be washed away, but the rest disappears slowly as Jade's hand travels over his body and he sighs and hums happily.

"Yes," he says and leans back, trying to at least not be complicated to clean. Cream sounds wonderful. Everything stings and ... he wouldn't mind, if the when and how he has sex were still under his control. He figures he'll have to take better care of his body from now on. Especially if more of Jade's guests are like this one.

He wants to know, badly, if that is the case. On the other hand, he doesn't want to jinx it. He's made mistakes and that Jade's this nice to him anyway? Not something he should expect to be granted again. Quietly, he agrees: "I'm glad it won't be a problem."

It's...strangely relaxing, bathing with someone like this. Jade can't say he's ever done anything similar before. Shinjirou's hums are quiet in the air, and Jade can feel the way his voice vibrates when he starts to wash his neck, his touches lingering for longer than strictly necessary.

"I don't think I'll be renting you out for a few days anyway." He's always been good at setting aside irrelevant thoughts, and this situation is no exception. He is brisk; businesslike. "Unless you want me to find someone for you? Be honest."

The correct answer would, of course, be that he'll like whichever option Jade decides to pick for him. But in this case, Jade is genuinely curious about his preferences, even if he has to wonder if there's any point in asking him while he's still in such a needy state.

Shinjirou needs no prompt to tilt his head and bare his throat. His body follows Jade's movements blindly, instinctively, giving him both the access and the room he needs. Eyes not quite closed, he sighs again, wondering if he'd be allowed to reach out and touch Jade, too. He doesn't try anything, but considering how he presses back into Jade's chest, it must be painfully obvious he's ... well, trying to cuddle, as embarrassing as it is.

Be honest, that's an order. Isn't it? "No. If you need me to spread my legs again, I will do it, but I -- I think maybe I should learn to be better first?" He's trying his best to make himself sound willing for whatever Jade decides in the end. He fears the uncertainty in his voice will give him away: if he has to endure this kind of thing again too soon, he's afraid he'll freak out, that his body isn't going to be able to take it after all.

"I don't know anything about this." He lowers his head, hugging himself. "I don't know any rules or, or customs and stuff. It's pretty obvious, right? And that sucks for you, I guess."

He takes advantage of the way Shinjirou is hugging himself to put a little distance between them, beginning to wash his back. Despite the hot water that surrounds them, it's colder without Shinjirou spooned up against his chest, and Jade can feel goosebumps forming at the back of his neck.

"Alright," he says neutrally, not bothering to contradict Shinjirou's assessment of himself. He had already praised him once, earlier that night. If Shinjirou doesn't remember it, or wants to do even better, he's not about to dissuade him.

With Shinjirou's back done, Jade finally turns his attention to his hips, where the worst of the scratches are present. He takes extra care as he soaps up the area, working slowly, and leaving himself open for Shinjirou to slump back against.

"Did you enjoy yourself tonight?" He asks suddenly, not missing a beat in his work.

While Jade takes care of his back, he nearly falls asleep. It's incredibly soothing. He pinches himself to stay awake and as soon as Jade's done, he snuggles up to him again. It's so much warmer, so much better with a firm chest to lean onto, able to feel Jade's heartbeat. He forgets himself and his situation for a moment, pressing a kiss to Jade's jaw.

Shoulders hunched, Shinjirou glances up at him. It'd be easier to admit if they'd just be talking about sex. But what he enjoyed was being used for sex. He squirms, despite Jade's caution. The scratches haven't started to close up yet and the soap burns worse for it. "... yes, I did. It felt -- really good." He can't imagine the other slaves at the market being into any of what had happened to him. He was kicking the kidnappers when they tried to examine him; they just started crying for their mommy.

At the moment he can't say he feels like he's better than them. His mind is focused on hold me and he'd like to hit himself for that. His hands curl into fists below the water. He'll loathe himself in a few hours.

When Shinjirou squirms, he goes even slower. He wants to make him feel good, after all, safe and rewarded and appreciated. Judging by the kiss, it had been working, at least up until the moment he had asked his question. Shinjirou feels tense and closed off again, and when he looks down, he sees his hands had formed themselves into fists. So, his tension wasn't due to arousal.

Jade lays a quelling hand on the left fist, wrapping his fingers lazily around it and squeezing. What had caused the tension? He doesn't think Shinjirou is lying, so what is he anxious over?

Nothing to do but try coax it out of him. It could be important.

"Which part? I want to hear you describe it." A note of command had entered his voice again.

He tries to convey don't make me say that with his eyes alone, pressing his lips together. Jade is kind to him, except for asking this question, though. Opening his hand, he interlaces his fingers with Jade's. He needs to hold on to something. Steady his body and mind before he exposes a part of himself he's not sure how to deal with yet.

"I wasn't important, I didn't have to think about anything. You didn't care, both of you didn't, you didn't treat me like a lover or a one-night stand, I could -- just relax and listen and follow your orders." His throat feels tight and he doesn't speak for a moment, lowering his eyes and breathing too harshly. "And it fucking hurt, but that was good too. I need to be told and I need to be hurt."

He knows all that. Maybe he's known it for a long time even. Stating it plainly, it's not just a vague idea anymore. That's what he is. "Fuck." He exhales slowly, voice shaking. "Fuck."

Jade may not understand why people derive comfort from physical reassurance, but he knows that they do, and that's enough. He curls his fingers more tightly around Shinjirou's in a wordless show of support, giving him another light squeeze.

Not that he sees why Shinjirou needs the support. He's not saying anything that deserves condemnation.

"You seem to exhibit some characteristics of a submissive," he observes. He's not involved with the community, and it's not the sort of lifestyle he has an interest in (although he supposes he's practicing it now, in a twisted sort of way), but he's heard about it from some of his associates. "It's- "

Normal, he almost says, but his goal here isn't to reassure Shinjirou. It's to tie him closer.

Smoothly, Jade continues, almost as if he hadn't interrupted himself. "It's very much a deviant lifestyle, I'm afraid." Which isn't exactly a lie. "But for our purposes, it might be an advantage. Thank you for telling me."

He's doing the logical thing here; why does he feel guilty?

It all sounds very technical, the way Jade puts it. Maybe that should make him feel better about it, but all it does is make him shiver. There's still more hot water running into the tub and he's feeling cold.

"Submissive." The word leaves an odd taste in his mouth. He's contrary, too often. No is a lot easier to say than yes, for him. But ... the thrill, the sick arousal in his gut when he let go and, yeah, submitted to the two men, let Jade's guest decide whether he was tight or loose. He flushes, looking up at Jade, tightening the grip on his hand. "You're going to use that against me, aren't you."

He turns his upper body around to face him properly. "I don't care. Do it. Shit, I'm going to get off on it, probably." Careful here, he thinks, or he'll suffer another fit of laughter. When it still really isn't fucking funny. "Anything else you wanna know about sex and me? Maybe there's more advantages for you."

Oh, he's definitely going to put that information to good use. He's suspected most of it already, just based on his observations, but it's good to have confirmation.

Smiling, he says nothing on that count, leaving it all to Shinjirou's imagination.

"I think I have enough to work with for now." Very deliberately, he allows his gaze to drop as he begins to wash the cuts and scratches again, just as gently as before. "Unless you think there's something I should know? Your worst fantasies, perhaps?"

There's a teasing lilt to his tone, however, one that makes it clear he doesn't expect Shinjirou to give it to him that easily.

He's confused and nervous; it's never a good thing when he's agitated, he knows that. It leads to him behaving like even more of an idiot and of course he fails to hold his tongue and mouthes off at Jade: "Men wearing glasses."

Following Jade's traveling gaze, his face heats up. Blotchy? Yes, sure. Coming from the wrong person? Yes, that too. But it's fascinating. Some of the bruises have already started darkening, others are still bright red. There's some violet and blue and green, all decorated with angry stripes. He finds himself going into an almost trance-like state, watching Jade's hand clean him.

"Did that guy tell you?" Tension draining out of his body, he becomes mellow again, leaning back and licking his lips. "That he wants to see if I can take two cocks at once? Mh."

He lets out a dry little hah at the quip, and is just as dry when he says, "Yes, I seem to recall something like that." Shinjirou and his guest had hardly been quiet, after all, especially considering the fact that Jade had been listening in to see if there was any information he could glean from the encounter.

His hand goes to rest on Shinjirou's belly again, only this time, he strokes it properly. The skin is smooth and warm under his hand, which firmly moves back and forth in little rubbing motions. Sometimes, his hand dips a little lower than usual, but never does it actually reach Shinjirou's groin.

When he speaks, his voice is lower again, a quiet intensity colouring every word. "Tell me, what appeals to you more? The attention, or the sensation of fullness?"

In his mind's eye, he sees Shinjirou writhing on his bed again, rocking back and forth against the fist he had squeezed inside himself under the directions of someone who might as well be a perfect stranger.

While he's literally floating in the water, his mind is doing the same, put on soft cushions as Jade rubs his belly. It's surprising how calming Jade's touches can be, when he isn't tugging or yanking on him. Melting into the embrace, he closes his eyes and stretches his legs out as far as the tub allows.

"Fullness," he breathes. "When you think you'll split into pieces and you feel so heavy and numb, but that cock or toy or ... fist, just keeps stretching you out anyway."

Raising his hand, his fingertips brush Jade's shoulder, then nape. He, too, remembers distinctly, that first time Jade gave him directions. And despite being sober, he'd been excited to oblige. Catching a strand of Jade's hair, he toys with it briefly. "I can still feel him now, I'm still loose. And you, I can feel you in my throat. It burns every time I speak."

His hum is accompanied by his body rolling back against Jade's. "And I haven't found my limits yet."

Being touched in such a familiar manner is odd, especially when the topics they're discussing are far from romantic - not that he knows anything about that - but he's coming to accept that much of this situation is odd.

And I haven't found my limits yet. It's dangerous, Jade knows, but the thought sends a thrill of excitement running through him. He's always found human bodies to be endlessly fascinating - the injuries that can be survived and those that can't, the precise limits that a body can be pushed to, the healing after the injury...

He probably shouldn't be thinking about that sort of thing right now. It's never been a sexual thing for him before; just a subject of scientific curiosity - and discarded ambitions.

"I see," Jade says, telling himself to refrain from making any promises. It's surprisingly difficult; he thinks, if he isn't so tired, his cock would be twitching at the descriptions pouring from Shinjirou's mouth. He's so refreshingly honest like this, his directness appealing. "I'll keep it in mind."

He presses closer against Shinjirou's back, one hand still on his belly. The other reaches out to wash those long legs the best he can. With the way they're stretched out, it's near impossible to clean t he whole length of them properly. Jade stills the movement his hands in an attempt to get Shinjirou's attention. "Do you think you can do this yourself?"

"Yes, of course." The soap slips from Jade's hand into his and he blinks his eyes open again, pulling one leg closer to lather it until bubbles are spread over his skin. Curious, he dips his fingers into one particularly large bruise on the hollow of his knee. Hissing, he tenses for a second. Then he relaxes again and moves over to the other leg.

With Jade's hand on his stomach, he feels safe and placid. Too much. He's nuzzling him, pecking his neck and shoulder, tracing the scar. Jade knows a lot about him -- not everything, thankfully -- but he doesn't know anything about Jade. He knows that there's apparently someone Jade considers a friend, he's gathered as much from the dull business conversation. And that is very vague.

Seeing as he mustn't ask and hearing himself blubber about his desires and fears openly, he fears the gap is going to grow. Jade will learn more about him, without a doubt. Nibbling on his neck, Shinjirou sighs. Maybe it's for the best. "Am I clean enough now?"

The scar is a part of him now, as much as his hands and brain are. He accepts the touches without comment, more interested in examining Shinjirou, making sure that there's no trace of uncleanliness left on his property. Finally, he nods, satisfied.

Though he has to wonder at the reason for that quiet sigh. Did Shinjirou not want to get up yet? But his words implied otherwise.

"Go dry yourself, but stay in the bathroom. I'll be out in a minute." Jade is already taking the soap back and starting to scrub quickly at his arms and hands. He had washed earlier; this is just for extra cleanliness.

"Yes." He climbs out of the bathtub and reaches for the nearest towel, rubbing the soft fabric over his body without much pressure. The electrifying pain when he pokes the bruises may be great, but ripping the scratches open accidentally would just make him dirty again. When he's finished, he neatly hangs the towel up to dry and returns to the bathtub, mostly because he isn't sure where he's supposed to wait.

And he stands still, no fiddling with the chain or shifting his weight from one foot to the other. The latter would be nice as his legs are worn out from when they'd been pushed back too far. He fights the urge to sit down successfully. Jade will tell him if that's what he's supposed to do. Maybe it is, but he'd rather not guess and be wrong.

Shinjirou is doing much better than he had this morning. Jade rewards him by finishing up quickly, turning the tap off and climbing out of the bath after a scant minute or two. He wraps a clean towel around himself, then motions for Shinjirou to come closer.

"Now that you're here, I may as well show you where I keep the first aid supplies." He opens the cupboard under the sink, gesturing to a neat, well-kept box. A few years before, he'd have much more supplies on hand, but the need for that had passed. He closes the cupboard again. "And I have the creams here." A drawer is pulled open. "They should all be clearly labelled, so you shouldn't have any problem finding the correct one to use. Medicine I keep in the kitchen; you've probably already seen it. Ask me before you use any of it."

After he picks out the right tube, Jade closes the drawer again, pushing himself to his feet. "This will help with the pain and speed up the healing process." But he pauses. Shinjirou had looked happy while he was drying himself, even though he must have been aggravating his wounds. And earlier, he had seemed entranced by the bruising that coloured his skin. "Unless you'd rather let them heal on their own?"

Touches are soothing, but knowing where to patch himself up should it be necessary is taking a weight off his shoulders he hadn't known he'd been carrying until that moment. He kneels beside Jade, trying to memorize what he's being told.

"I, uh, normally take breaks, but ... I dunno." He glances at the tube, then back at Jade. The guest had treated him like it didn't matter if it ended in broken bones; Jade on the other hand seems like he's more careful even when he's inflicting pain. More precise. Though how often is he going to have to deal with guests and how often just with Jade? It's not like there's a calendar available to him. He drops his gaze to the floor even as he follows Jade in getting up again. "I mean I don't know when you're going to, when that's going to happen again. So if it's soon, then uhm."

His gestures are far from graceful. The flailing stops when he hugs himself, rubbing his upper arms. He nods at the tube in Jade's hand and clears his throat. "I'd rather have that."

As he watches Shinjirou stutter and shift about, the foremost thought that comes to mind is that he really has to teach Shinjirou better control. Right now, he's too easily flustered, too expressive. It lends a genuineness to his responses, yes, but someday soon he'll to assume other guises. Not everyone will enjoy his current attitude.

The second thought is that such a simple question shouldn't have required so much deliberation. Not to mention the way he had phrased his response...

Jade's eyes narrow thoughtfully. "And if it's not soon?"